as much as  i try to hide it, i really am kinda lost without you. i miss having you to always talk to and i miss you being mine. i dont know what it will be like this summer but i really do with you were going to be part of it. i regret not cherishing our last kiss or last hug, the last time i layed with you in your bed and the last time you held me while watching a scary movie. the last time i smiled for days, the last time you sang in the car, the last time i looked into your eyes. i dont know if you ever felt as close to me as i felt to you but i really thought you would have tried for me. 

but i know youre happier without me and i know you just need to continue pretending everything is ok for your friends but i know i cant pretend as well as you. i still havent stopped thinking about you and thinking about all that you have dont to me and for me. it was a rough relationship but i wouldnt trade it for the world. i learned how to act in situations that i didnt really like but i stuck it out for you, i learned how to laugh more than i had in a while and i learned that someone could want to be with me again. 

all i really want to do is turn back time so i can really appreciate every little thing we had. i still will never forget that kiss on my forehead. i think it was the sweetest thing you have ever done and every time i think about it i go back to that night and remember how much you made me smile. nick i miss you but missing you will never get you back. it will just make me look stupid and ill be waiting for nothing because i know youll never come back.